I used to have fire.

I used to have friends.

I used to have fun.

I used to be helpful.

I used to know God.

I used to know love.

I used to be good.

I used to be bad.

I used to be pretty.

I used to be interesting.

I’m just used up.

Shutter Release

My poem I just rediscovered from years ago!

Shutter Release

My kind of love is different, you see.
In just a moment
I know you’ll agree.

Love manifests in more than one fashion,
Not just in romance, 
but also in passion.

I found a new love when I finally found her,
It was love at first sight,
I know it, I’m sure.

Her ebony contours are smooth and sleek,
And I see her as elegant,
Even with her quadrate physique.

She goes by the name of Konica Minolta.
No, she’s not human,
She’s my SLR camera.

She captures the moments dearest to me,
And preserves forever
My greatest memories.

My kind of love is different you see.
In just these few moments
I think you’ve agreed.

Salami

I finished my sandwich
Finished all the goodness
I am left with crumbs on a plate.

My poetry at its finest… :D

Unexplainable

It’s unexplainable
I don’t know why 
The answer’s unattainable
No matter how hard I try
Is it just the day?
Or is there a reason?
Will they go away,
These thoughts of self-treason?
I apologize
To you in advance
Should you hear my sighs
As I dance the dance 
And have no fears
Should you see these lines
I’ve been writing them for years
So I’ll be fine
I’ll go on outside
And put on a smile
I’ll walk with pride
And pretend for a while
It’s unexplainable
You won’t know why 
The answer’s unattainable
No matter how hard you try

Ça Vaut La Peine?

Je pense que c’est mieux d’oublier tout. Non, pas d’oublier tout ce qui est passé, mais ce qui peut ensuivra, mes idéations idiotes. Oui, c’est vrai que je peux t’attendre, mais je ne peux pas tenir ces questions sans réponse.  Vas-tu me donner la vérité? Ou continuer avec ce tabou? 

Soit rendre réel ces illusions ou donner-moi la dure vérité parce que je ne peux plus les attendre. T’as disparu sans notion, sans un mot, pareil à l’eau qui s’évapore dans l’air en tant que vapeur, ne jamais être revu. N’écoute plus mes paroles et commence à écouter ma cœur.

Alors, après tout cela, je me demande: ça vaut la peine?

Cela était quelque chose que j’ai écrit l’été dernier. C’est incroyable l’ampleur du choses qui peut changer en seulement quelques mois. Alors, si quelqu’un d’entre vous attend passivement pour quelque chose dans ta vie a changer, prends les rênes et changez-les. Vous pouvez le fait! Devenir le personne que vous voulez. Quand j’ai écrit cela, je l’ai écrit avec une mentalité que rien va changer, comme s’il était le fin du monde. Beaucoup a changé depuis lors. Je n’attends pas personne, et je suis contente.

Remember

In Flanders field the poppies blow

Between the crosses row on row

And now, today, upon our hearts

We wear the poppy in taking part

Of the remembrance of those who died

To give us freedom, while theirs was denied

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So don’t take for granted our way of life

For it wouldn’t be, without sacrifice and strife

Those who served had faith in us

We, the future, so don’t break their trust

Let us live our lives in thanksgiving

Doing well to our brothers and in peace persevering.

Don’t write essays; write music.

Resent

You’ve never seen this side of me 
You’ll never see these scars
I’ll have you wondering endlessly
Until you’re seeing stars

I’ll say all that you want to hear
But you won’t hear what I want to say
I know this isn’t very clear
But I relive it everyday

Maybe it’s just a distant dream
Or that’s what you’ve made it become
You tell me it’s not what it seems
But to your excuses I’ve grown numb

You fool yourself and you fool the rest
As if it were a breeze
All these things you have suppressed
You play it off with ease

I’ve kept to myself this resentment
You’ll never know how I feel
You’ll never know of my discontentment
Only these scars can reveal.

Pleasure For Pain

Why do I put myself in this position,
That starts off with pleasure and ends in frustration?
It’s just something I do now and then,
It’s something I’ve known time and again.

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If I knew what’s good I’d stay away
‘Cause all that’s come will soon decay.
And even though it seems so right
All odds are against me in hindsight.

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To realize and act heralds wisdom
But I’m just a hypocrite with rhyme and rhythm.
‘Cause I deny the truth of it all
I only wait for my detriment to befall.

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This last verse is my salute to the strong,
To those who sacrifice and move along.
To follow their example would be most wise
But I’m just a fool who believes her own lies.

CUDDLE FUDDLE by DEDDY